just to put it in writing

someday i will no longer have little ones.
though this is very hard to imagine,
a day will come in which i will not need to nurse, change diapers,
chase toddlers, sing and pat babies to sleep, and
(the one i really cannot imagine parting with)
wear my little one in a wrap, a sling, or an ergo
(you should see the collection :) ).
i do not really look forward to this day,
although i know once it comes i will embrace the new stage of life.
but what i want to put in writing today
is something i hope never to forget.
and thats the joy of it all, despite the exhaustion,
the constant struggle to balance life, the little frustrations.
today i was at a meeting with jonas.
i thought i had it made with just one child in tow.
but jonas was not interested in the meeting,
and he spent the most of the time running away from me,
shouting for other childrens' balls, and all together making a commotion.
i finally decided to leave early once i could no longer handle the glares of a man there.
now this was a basesball meeting for the boys, mind you.
parents of boys who were a few short years ago just like jonas.
i hope having had as many children as i have,
i will never be that parent who forgets what a joy a little one is
and only sees the commotion. i always want to see the joy.